Throwing Back A Thorn Bush

You know the feeling where something just keeps persisting in your mind and makes you worry and think about it all day long to no end. It just like walking through a thorn bush. No matter how hard you push along to get past it, the thorns are still there to prick you. But alas, i now feel that i have broken free of that thorn bush which has been pricking me the past weeks.

It was such a pain not because i did not know what to do but rather i knew what had to be done and i was afraid of the probable outcome of that decision. The answer that i was longing to know would either be a warm breeze or a hammerfall on dainty crytal heart.

I'm glad that I now have the answer to which was bugging me and it was an answer that i really hoped for.

A smile like a blinding glaze,

A frown like a grey blanket,

Shalt thou smile then the stars shine,

Shalt thou frown shalt the stars die,

I hope thou shalt always be the way that i know thou,

That bright crazy lovely one that i fell for.

The noises are dying down as everyone has finally gotten tired of it. How much can one be of a topic? Long but not indefinite. The chaos dies down to leave a silence and peace that resembles a falling leaf.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Resurrection

It has been such a long time since i've updated my blog. I have not had any steam to do so but somehow i came by it and i just felt like writing something.

Where art thou my fair,

Thy warmth sooths the very soul,

Love thou I shall.

Noises, stories and rumors float in the air like pollens fly with a gust of wind.

Heed not these things i shall for i find a spot which i name my

'Silence in the Midst of Noise'.

Act i shall as i wish whether bold or shy. I have not a fear to show my feelings. Smirk as you may but it shan't sway me. I live my path as it lies.

~Kit~

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

That Which is No Longer Present

I realize that I've not been blogging for at least a month. Heh...i somehow lost the heat for it during that time interval because i felt that i was contented with how things were n life for just a short period. Or it could also be because i was a little conflicted during that time. I don't really know and i can tell.

So now winter has really broken in and at this current juncture it's depressing given the current situation. I think most of you who are here with me in Kalamazoo would somehow guess why it would be depressing for me. It is exactly what you think the reason is. As much as i don't want it to be, i am still thinking of it and feeling the absence.

This would not be the first time that this has happened but somehow this time, the feeling seems heavier and carries with it more emotions. However, i am not one to spoil someone's day by reminiscing about it. I will put on a smiling front and enjoy my time with the rest of you. My grey scale feelings are not something you all should be burdened with. I applaud you all for putting up with my nonsense and i know that i go overboard sometimes and i apologize for it. However, please understand that sometimes i also have my limits of which i can take nonsense. I admit I'm not a very patient person, in fact far from it but i try.

I'm sorry.

I miss you.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

On Hold

I'm currently in no mood no blog and have not been since the last post....

shall update when finals are over i hope.....

or when i feel like it....

Till then....

Thursday, December 4, 2008

From Then Till Now

So i've been lazy to update my blog despite having nothing else better to do...But i think i've reach a point where its getting considerably outdated....

So anyway...life's the same old same old...this weekend was fun though since it was the 'Scariest' day of the year...yes it was Halloween!!!
Halloween here sure is something awesome. Over here in the states, its something that is really big and everyone takes the trouble to prepare and dress up for it. There were so many parties going around and most of the hottest joints in Kzoo were crazy. Unfortunately, unlike Malaysia over here you have to be 21 to enter those joints and to drink. And your's truly is sadly only 19.

So instead of partying outside, we had a small home party at our place on Friday night and Saturday we went for the Halloween Dance that was organized by IPC. Pictures ensue.....

Ghoul??
I actually looked scary here

Mai and I

Sue-Lynn and I

The Pimp, The Spirit, The Cheerleader, The Ghoul

Cheryl, Yui, Mai, Me

Malaysians
Go figure
oooo *burns*
Matching??
After washing my face....damn eyeliners

Alright for more pics please proceed to my Facebook page. I'm too lasy to arrange them in here :P

Anyway signing off now....shall blog about any other interesting things that might happen this week.

~Kit~

Monday, November 3, 2008

My 19th

Alright i admit that this is way way overdued. My birthday was on the 10th which was a Friday but we went Firehouse, a bar/club on Thursday night. Sadly being only 19th and being in America, i couldnt drink so it was a little of a joy kill. So anyway a few pics to show what happened and what we did....

Bel, me, Henry

No i dont smoke really...its someone else's
The Pair Anisa and I

Getting it on at the dance floor

Mark, Sue-Lynn Sue-Lynn, Cheryl

Anisa, Bel

Amin looks excited

Yeap...thats what we did for my birthday....

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Oh yea....Jan Yi came over from Ann Arbor for the weekend....she had study break and took the ooportunity to come over...it was good to see her and HAHAHAHA we managed to get her drunk :P

Still wanna come over again Jan??

~Kit~

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Cooking

I actually find that cooking is fun and it relieves stress. When you cook, all there is to worry about is the food that you're cooking and all other things just seem to fade away for a period. Also, its fun cause you get to experiment wth new ways off cooking. Granted i dont have many ingredients to cook with so I have to attempt to make something new out of what i have.

Anyway, i cooked this for dinner today :D:D

A lil more and it'll be as good as my mum's....it might the seasoning not the skills though HAHAHA...self denial.....lol

Its chicken by the way.....

Oh well I was bored and just wanted to post this up :D Oh and KaiSin if you want it you have to come here...HAHAHA



~Kit~

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Moving

This might not sound manly at all but movies make me emotional

Its the only time i tear

Untitled

My birthday was on the 10th Friday and i dont think i'll write about it just yet.....

Monday, October 13, 2008

Chicago and Many More

OK so this is late by a week...bite me :P

Anyway we went down to Chicago for this Raya Open House that was hosted by the Malaysian Students Department in Chicago. It was almost as though we were back in Malaysia as we saw SO many Malaysians. Honestly i never expected so many Malays. It seemed exactly like a normal Raya open house back home. We obviously got to enjoy Malaysian food like curry chicken, rendang, laksa, kuih and many more...oooo bliss...

After the open house, we went to the Chicago city center for the new transfer students who are namely us :D

So pics away and there's many more but i'm so lazy to put everything on my blog. Go to my facebook if you wanna see more...

'The Couple'

Sue-Lynn and I

Cheryl and Mike

View of Chicago

It's an open theatre

THE BEAN

Pose people pose

water walking??

Thats where the pics came from

love the view

Trump tower!!!

I love this

And that ladies and gentlemen is the first trip to Chicago...i think there's another coming up next month... WHEEEE.....

Till then...

~Kit~

Yes I Realize

Yes i realize i havent updated my blog the whole week.....

Its the weekend....lemme sober up then i'll update...

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Achievement

OK honestly i'm amazed myself but this is the first weekend i've gone through without a single drink....no beer, no hard liquor, nothing....zippppp....

Sunday, October 5, 2008

May Thou Rest In Peace

I might not have known you well but I will still remember you.

May you Rest In Peace.

Another Friday

Its once again the morning of the start of the weekends where you start to do things that might not be beneficial.....abstain from drinking this weekend eh?? yes yes......hopefully

Friday, October 3, 2008

The Sentence Speaks Itself

Just being around you is something.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Need??

One week is better than nothing yes??
Distance somehow doesnt seem to be the problem now but time...
What can we do??

The Week That Was

Yet another has passed and life still is the same albeit alot of people in it feeling down and all about relationships and life. But that's not something that i wanna talk about. On a brighter note, i finally couldn't resist temptation and bought my self an iPod Touch. I admit i've been wanting an iPod since like forever but i never quested for one. However since the new iPods came out, iPod prices have dropped considerably. And also considering that i'm in the States where electronics are so much cheaper than back in Malaysia, i got one and am not regretting it.

Now that i've got an iPod i dont think that i'll bother getting another item that i always wanted which is a PSP. Instead, i'm going to get myself a new pair of shades since my old pair has let me down. Considering that it is a United Colors of Benneton pair of shades, since i got to the States the shades started deteriorating. The UV coating is actually peeling off and just the other day i have no idea how but i lost the nose piece on the right side. So new shades be coming in now. No more spending after the shades. I dont really have anything else to get anyway.

Till next time then i shall blog more....in Dawn's place now and not going to hog the PC....



~Kit~

Beach, Life and Feelings

Went to South Haven last Saturday with the housemates and some seniors and friends. 11 of us went and it was an enjoyable trip. We left our place like 12 something and got to the beach close to 2. And the amazing thing is that we only came back at 2am. Yes people 2am. We played around during the day at the beach and in the evening we had a bbq and drinking. Yes drinking is pretty much included in most gathering/group dinner/bbq/party in the States. I might most probably go back to Malaysia an alcoholic. We had like 2 bottles of Bacardi that night with quite alot of beer. No one got drunk so no worries. Anyway i'm going to let the pictures take it away.

The Beach

Pier

Inwards view

Chris, Mark and Cheryl

The insolent bbq grill

Sunset

Sunset with Sue-Lynn and Mike

We surprised Venn

Motion

It goes from this....

to this...

and finally this.

*****

Life here in the States has been pretty much boring. There really isn much to do and sometimes it can be a little depressing especially when the net is down. Its a good thing that we can still hang out with people. It really isnt so bad as there are still things to do around here. Its the nights and Sundays when the bus doesnt run.

There isnt even things to spend money on if you do have the cash to spend. Dont mention things like getting a PS3 or Xbox. Those things can become boring after some time. We still dont have a tv yet and are pretty much leeching off Dawn' cable. Sorry Dawn. You find us in your place almost everyday.

I need to get out more. It seems that the only thing that i can do is throw on my sports attire and just go out jogging or playing something alone or with others. This is going to be the life for the next 2 years.

Atleast i wll say that cooking is fun. Seriously you might think that a guy liking to cook is not manly but there is a certain thrill in trying out something and seeing whether it comes out good. I dont mind cooking for others as long as i have the time and i know what to cook. Well that pretty much sums up life over here.

*****

Uncomfortable is what i would describe my feelings now. Somehow and i cant really explain why but i tend to worry about other people more than myself. Seeing others in distress makes me worry them. Its been like this since i can remember. I worry for my friends, relatives and basically people that are close to me or i know. It might have come from the time when someone i knew did something incredibly regretful because that person was in a distressed and depressed state. The only time i dont worry is when i'm asleep. Arh well i'm human and i do have emotions although quite a number of people would not believe that coming from me. Do i really put on a cold demeanor that depicts me. I admit that i can be cold at times but i do care especially for those i keep close to my heart. I need assurance to stop worrying........

~Kit~

Monday, September 22, 2008