Tying Up Some Ends and Life Ahead

6 and a half more weeks till i go over to the states. Its not really as long as what it sounds like since time does literally FLY. And yet there are still so many things left to do such as my visa, paying for the flight and packing.

Well visa ought not be a problem since i already have everything and just need to get it done. Just that i don't wanna go do it alone and rather wait for Amin. However if worst comes to worst I'll have to do it alone but I'll wait for him.

Besides that i still need to SHOP for the stuff that i need. Well i basically have everything but just need more of them that's all. One of something wont be any good if it goes bad or missing. However still putting it off....my mum's been asking me to not procrastinate but its a bad habit. Suppose that I'll have to get it done this weekend or next.

Currently I'm having mixed feelings as to going off cause a huge part of me is excited to go over for all the new experience and independent living (so cliche) but a smaller part of me seems hooked here where i know my way around, i know how to handle and manage things and also all the taken-for-granted good food that Malaysia has to offer. Also this part of me feels grieve to leave my parents as when I'm gone only the both of them are left. It will be my parents in a house that seems a little too large for only two people to stay in. However, i feel privileged that my parents are able to send me out of the country to study where many other youths my age do not have the opportunity. So, i feel obligated to return to Malaysia after i have finished studying. If i do get a job over in the States i would not turn it down as i have made this decision some time ago that working there is better than coming back to Malaysia to work seeing as how the country is turning out nowadays. Its all too pro-Malay (no offence meant). If i do obtain a job there i would still make sure i come back to see to my parents. But ahh, this is all talk for now. I'm sure many of those who read this would think that 'ahh...this guy is saying what all other people say and wont do'. Well i cant deny that i will hold on to this but i will do my best and see what the future holds in store.

Also, i would be sure to miss my friends and peeps that i have known since small and also those that i have only gotten to know these past 2 years but it would seem that not all of us would be continuing on to the same places. College is like a meeting point before a split road where you get to enjoy the most of two years then you're off to another place with a few friends and have to make new ones again. But that's all life as my dad says. The people around you will always change and will only stabilize once you reach working life. But that's still some years more to come. For now i suppose I'll have to look in front of me and concentrate with what is about to come.

Ahh well enough thinking about this before i start crying (most people would not believe this). Haha...well enough rambling for now....shall write again when i feel like it...

~Kit~

Monday, July 7, 2008